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The 88- how good can it be.

Im up early.
I feel a lack of sleep but i dont feel a single weeny bit tired.

I sparked the arguement last night.
Well i dont feel bad at all.
For once, i felt that i was right. Im like part time invisible woman and part time girlfriend. And yes, the feeling is hard hittting.

So i called to ask him whether we were meeting for lunch, and he sounded so not sincere. Who wouldnt feel awkward?
I know he was on the phone with somebody else or something like that. But shouldnt he be like happy to hear my voice or what? I mean, we hardly have any phone conversations, and ya i know hes trying to pick up my calls more often and text messages too. All cause i say so.
but why do i have to say something before he actually takes initiative? Its makes me paranoid. Be automatic.
And dont tell me youre not the kind of guy.
its a matter of whether you want to or not.
And you choose not too, so think about it.
You say i treat you like a toy? You say i dont appreciate.

Look through all windows, and you tell me, whose the one whose been taking things lighty? Whose the one whose been caught up with his own things? Whose the one who doesnt call?
Like i told you, if i were to die, you's definately be the last to know?
And isnt that phrase suppose to be a turning point for you?
Well, not for you stubborn.


like i said, i dont want a change now.
I just need to adapt, and soon, i'll do anything i have to.


and btw, thanks for the hugs people!
:D
they really did cheer me up heaps.
:D:D:D:D